Another new year after one cycle of 365¼ days is done.
My After 17th blog is silently celebrating the 3rd year since creation. I always think that this blog never grow up, just like this baby-writer itself. Still in the process of learning (looking at every corners of the cradle, listening to the sounds of bedtime lullaby & never stop crying). But there is one thing we all know, that a baby will always true to himself. He never turned eyes away from his favourite toy. He will quietly fall asleep after singing him Twinkle, Twinkle Little Stars everyday. He don't lie, even for goods. He just do what is right for him.
Posts I've made in the past:
Year 2017 : 8
Year 2018 : 10
Year 2019 : 5
Year 2019 has been a hella rollercoaster 🎢
= I have mild-moderate depression attack since I've left school for years. Thankfully, I have my friends (my dumpsters?) to dump my thrashy rants and stupid obsessions which's so immatured. And, I had completed Diploma in Theory Music which is oddly certified via online.
= I have been letting out the 'whites' many times, both unintentionally & intentionally to comform myself. I was in doubt if I, as a Christian, shall forbid from doing it. I attended and completed the 3rd Year, which is the last year of Short Term Theological Course at TJC Kota Kinabalu Church. I got the actual answer from preachers.
As some of the downhills listed above, I think that's the MAIN BIG REASONS why I'm not updating much here. I feel lazy, tired, demotivated, bored, and lose sense of excitement to create posts. Especially those backdated photos & videos that don't give me joy to do my work. And after that, compressing my job with newer photos & videos that seemed prior and needed to post online. Lastly, the result is devastating. I don't do anything. Old? No new post. New? No new post.
the truth about being a small youtuber...
What I learnt from this video?
"Focus on things that I'm more excited about." — feed meimei
"Don't pushed away what you liked because of what you wanted it to be. Not everything walks according your will. So enjoy the path while walking. And you will see how much efforts you've spent for the last result that you get."
Hopes in Year 2020:
= Look at every corners of the world. Putting up a mindset: Able to distinguish the good ones and the bad ones. Do good, avoid bad.
= Listen to every sides. Be rational and don't biased. Keep the right ones, and fix the wrong ones.
= Learn to be calmed in any circumstances. Speak it out when you ought to, keep it inside when you have to. We humans are restricted by time and space.
= I will try to upload more blogposts, and consistently... Hopefully this year, I've created 20 posts? Challenge huh?
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