Thursday, January 2, 2020

My R.A.N.T #011 Asking questions...


Date: 02/01/2020 (Thursday)
Time: 1645 hours



Free time at home, I watched a YouTube video.

7 years old kid teaches me how to chat with the guy I met on dating APP [GLAM lab]

Little introduction before telling the real points here:
So, there are actually 2 kids here. And I believed the girl is 7 years old, and the boy is 10 years old. They helped a 누나 (noona = older sister, calling from a younger boy) to chat with a guy that she has good feeling on him. -- End --


Through my understanding, the girlkid is maybe too small to understand what's going on, but the boykid is confident & suggested stuffs to chat with the guy in the dating app. He even took the handphone and replied the guy's messages.


The noona finds out that she asked lots of questions to that guy. It's true instinct to feel this way, especially when you're just knowing each other no longer. Just as it's like you come to me is to dig informations.

But the boykid said, "Hey this is how love goes ; Ask..ask..and ask." By logical thinking, I think he said it right. You ask questions because you wanna know more about your future love partner. Wanna understand his background or his way of living. Wanna know things that he likes and dislikes. But through rational thinking, there are certain privacy-concerned things that we should avoid mentioning it. Don't get overboard when asking people questions. Plus some more, living in Asian country is known to be conservative in sharing thoughts.

Just like in friends' aspect, I'm that person who likes to ask many² questions to you if we're friends. When I say friends, I'm refering people that enters my life by start talking to me. Asian boy here, I can't leave myself from stigma for being a timid and not initiative in making conversations, or making friends. 😬✨ But when we talk to each other, and I feel that we're able to click each other, that's the moment of miracle comes. I will start to near you (but at the same time, be aware of people reaching you) and find things to converse, by asking questions. Some may found me a boring person, because I don't have much general interests that similar to surroundings. But in deep, I really want to make friend with you.

Personally, I prefer making one friend with deep conversations rather than many friends with shallow conversations. I like to talk more about feelings, making comparisons of situations happened in real life. Meanwhile, when I'm in a group of friends, I prefer to listen more then to speak more. I like to listen interesting thoughts that can broaden up my knowledge. This is me, ASHER YAPP. 🌿 Thank you for those who making me to stay with you and always staying there for me, the silent one. 🔇

Questions for this My R.A.N.T #011:
= How much questions should I ask among friend/s?
= Is it okay to ask many questions to my friend/s? Should he/she asks more questions too or just let them answer my questions?

Wednesday, January 1, 2020

My Thoughts for the Year 2020


2019 ▶️ 2020 🎉🎊🎊🎉
Another new year after one cycle of 365¼ days is done.

My After 17th blog is silently celebrating the 3rd year since creation. I always think that this blog never grow up, just like this baby-writer itself. Still in the process of learning (looking at every corners of the cradle, listening to the sounds of bedtime lullaby & never stop crying). But there is one thing we all know, that a baby will always true to himself. He never turned eyes away from his favourite toy. He will quietly fall asleep after singing him Twinkle, Twinkle Little Stars everyday. He don't lie, even for goods. He just do what is right for him.

Posts I've made in the past:
Year 2017  :  8
Year 2018  : 10
Year 2019  :  5

Year 2019 has been a hella rollercoaster 🎢
= I have mild-moderate depression attack since I've left school for years. Thankfully, I have my friends (my dumpsters?) to dump my thrashy rants and stupid obsessions which's so immatured. And, I had completed Diploma in Theory Music which is oddly certified via online.
= I have been letting out the 'whites' many times, both unintentionally & intentionally to comform myself. I was in doubt if I, as a Christian, shall forbid from doing it. I attended and completed the 3rd Year, which is the last year of Short Term Theological Course at TJC Kota Kinabalu Church. I got the actual answer from preachers.

As some of the downhills listed above, I think that's the MAIN BIG REASONS why I'm not updating much here. I feel lazy, tired, demotivated, bored, and lose sense of excitement to create posts. Especially those backdated photos & videos that don't give me joy to do my work. And after that, compressing my job with newer photos & videos that seemed prior and needed to post online. Lastly, the result is devastating. I don't do anything. Old? No new post. New? No new post.

the truth about being a small youtuber...

What I learnt from this video?
"Focus on things that I'm more excited about." — feed meimei

"Don't pushed away what you liked because of what you wanted it to be. Not everything walks according your will. So enjoy the path while walking. And you will see how much efforts you've spent for the last result that you get."

Hopes in Year 2020:
= Look at every corners of the world. Putting up a mindset: Able to distinguish the good ones and the bad ones. Do good, avoid bad.
= Listen to every sides. Be rational and don't biased. Keep the right ones, and fix the wrong ones.
= Learn to be calmed in any circumstances. Speak it out when you ought to, keep it inside when you have to. We humans are restricted by time and space.
= I will try to upload more blogposts, and consistently... Hopefully this year, I've created 20 posts? Challenge huh?